Me, Myself and Lavanya

This is what she asked me today. She kept on blaming me for scolding her and talking rudely to her as she has done every time since the time we are together. She always thinks whatever she does is always right, no matter how much ever one tries to explain her. She told me that I have a bloody gob (a slang for ‘mouth’ that she uses). She disconnected the fone and asked me not to talk to her as she does every other time. She told me that “I am talking shit.” and a lot of other slangs that she frequently uses for me and many other people. She always pretends that she is too innocent and people take her for granted. Actually, its the other way around. She makes people think like she’s innocent, and takes people for granted. In these few days, from March 1st to 5th, I took care of her so nicely coz she needed help. Each and every minute when she had to talk to me, I was with her. I never left her alone. She was never grateful for what I’ve done for her or in what ways I’ve helped her. And, the most sick part of this is that, she says it very proudly that whatever she wants she’ll do, no matter if it hurts the person who loves her the most.

In February, when she went home she cursed me and said that God will punish me for being so rude to her!! She went home for a puja. The puja has already shown results, as I’ve written in the last post on March 2nd. The problem with her is that, she thinks everyone should like whatever she likes!! Coz, she likes it! Aint that disgusting? I don’t know why I love her so much or why am I still with her or why I care for her so much.

She always uses all kinds of slangs possible at me. I never use any and inspite of asking her several times to stop using them, she never stopped and till today she’s using it on me and everyone else. She crossed her limits today. She asked me “Who the hell you are to talk rudely to me every time?” I felt so bad, that I loved and I’m still loving such a person, a person who doesn’t have any respect for her partner. When I’ll be speaking something seriously, she’ll always laugh and make fun of me, coz she knows that I’ll get irritated by that and she enjoys that, so that she can get a chance to say that I’m scolding, fighting and talking rudely.

As far as I know her, I can swear and say that, she’s ungrateful and selfish. The only reason for which Im with her till now is that I love her. I don’t think many people can tolerate such behavior from thier partner and still love him/her the same way. I always kept on forgiving her and not taking it too much personally when she used to use slangs at me. But, today she crossed her limits by saying this! Not just once, she asked me the same question 3 times making fun of me and my love. After that she said, God will punish me.

Well, let me see…

The reason for all this to happen was that, she was going on neglecting me and I did a mistake by asking her, why she was doing that. She doesn’t have any respect for the person who has helped her so much when she needed neither is she grateful for anything. Selfishness, is just what she knows. She just cares for herself…lives for herslelf… does a job for herself and eats and sleeps for herself.